I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. Rom 12:1-2

Friday, April 27, 2012

Out of control

Have I mentioned the uncertainty and lack of control? 

I pray for someone to hold and talk to and comfort and play with Baby Girl.  I have to trust God to take care of her during the waiting.  There's that word again:  TRUST.  I have to trust Him for this whole process.

And the waiting...I told myself I wouldn't do this again, but I am already compulsively checking email for any news.  Honestly, because Baby Girl is halfway around the world and my dossier is there too, if I don't hear anything in the morning (usually relatively early) there will be no news that day, BUT right now I am waiting for a physical package of her medical records to arrive at my agency from her country, and that could come at any time during the day so I check, check, check email.  And eat chocolate (not as much as I check email, though.)

Nothing this week, hopefully next week.  I'll save bemoaning weekends for another post.  Also hopefully next week will bring either a fun post or a meaningful one.  Must get my act together!


Vicky said...

Hi! The waiting is so hard! I agree in prayer with you that Baby girl is receiving the love and comfort as she waits for her mama!

Chelsea said...

I know exactly what you mean, and I know I will be exactly the same way. Waiting for more information about your child is hard. Even worse than waiting for Christmas as a child.

I have no doubt she is being loved and well cared for. The babies in HK are getting lots of prayers, and their caretakers are amazing. I'm super excited to hear about what information you get because I hope it will clue me in to what I can expect as well.