Have I mentioned the uncertainty and lack of control?
I pray for someone to hold and talk to and comfort and play with Baby Girl. I have to trust God to take care of her during the waiting. There's that word again: TRUST. I have to trust Him for this whole process.
And the waiting...I told myself I wouldn't do this again, but I am already compulsively checking email for any news. Honestly, because Baby Girl is halfway around the world and my dossier is there too, if I don't hear anything in the morning (usually relatively early) there will be no news that day, BUT right now I am waiting for a physical package of her medical records to arrive at my agency from her country, and that could come at any time during the day so I check, check, check email. And eat chocolate (not as much as I check email, though.)
Nothing this week, hopefully next week. I'll save bemoaning weekends for another post. Also hopefully next week will bring either a fun post or a meaningful one. Must get my act together!